Tuesday, June 30, 2009

i had an intense night. thank god for Danielle, wonder woman
for talking to me and letting me talk.
crash & burn baby.
drank nearly a whole bottle of wine.

when i lived alone,
i would have these nights,
sit in the cave
and not call anyone.
it's just odd f or me to consistently think
that strength lies in utter silence.

purge. purge. purge.
think about new things.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

I'm not feeling so good about certain things.
but sharing a room with nick isn't so bad,
and having roommates for the first time in
two years is a little ridiculous but really fun.

i laugh a lot more when i'm around nick,
which is probably healthy for the ice queen.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

i had a dream about King Daradas.
i woke up, typed it in (I somehow knew how to spell it), because i wondered. I've never heard of it before.

the Daradas were a people who lived north and north-east to the Kashmir valley. This kingdom is identified to be the Gilgit region in Kashmir along the river Sindhu or Indus.

and "daradaraya" means "King of the Daradas."


Saturday, June 20, 2009

i like to consider these my audition photos for a B-movie about
a cocaine-addicted ex-child star who grows up and must live
on the streets. the ending of course will be uplifting and hea
rtwarming as i overcome
obstacles no one thought i could . i will show THEM, i say. because as we all know,
ITS THAT EASY! all i have to do is decide to change and it happens, as i chase the American Dream
through the gutters of new york city.

a few scenes will pay homage to Whatever Happene
d to Baby Jane.

and i will also fall in love of course;
i will push my partner away multiple times,
but then come to realize that everybody needs somebody
and no one wants to die alone.

Friday, June 19, 2009

voice message i left myself (through nick's phone i imagine):
"colleen, hello, hello colleen, what are you doing? you have no life. and
everything sucks about your life. done. done."

I'm feeling last night, this morning.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

jumpin' on the cheryl-(haiku) train


lazy tangerines
and mustard cream romances
sunbathe in july

kiss me on the neck
slick, hot, and hungry peach lips
pocket them and go

Saturday, June 06, 2009

He said

Thursday, June 04, 2009

i have to read myself into exhaustion before i can fall asleep.

tiny trip (2) photos.etcetc.