so the feeling isn't great when you begin to question your worth as a human being based on the grade you receive on a paper.

i know it's silly. i know. But that feeling really beats you up. it's not even the grade really, it's the feeling of embarrassment, of being ashamed of your thoughts not being on a high enough level. and then more shame with the comments made on the paper, because I thought some of the same things, but i didn't think they even belonged.

I just feel foolish.





happybirthday
is also on my mind.

realized something today that i should have seen a long time ago.

it won't happen again.
promising myself.

i have this heavy feeling in my chest.
and i don't know how to get rid of it.
right now- its my own fault.