i used to think i knew what i wanted, but that was when i thought there was a 'you.' And that whole feeling took over my body and my mind and for weeks straight it was all i could think of.

and even though it stirred something inside of me, it just doesn't seem so important as it did then. i don't ache for it or even really think so much about it. maybe this is my fault, maybe things just happen. Fannie price says ' it could have happened any other way, but it didnt.'

but now, it's worth a fight to figure out what really is important. And although i may feel clumsy,awkward, and ugly about it, hopefully I can have faith in me, people, and god enough to figure this damned thing out.

and on the way, fix myself up a bit.

xoxo.
c